Camwhoresss

This is Nik, comin in overrrrrrrrrr~~~~~~~
beeeeepppp..

Assalamualaikum, dear readers.

this is goin to be a short(kot) post about camwhoring and the story of it tht relate to my life.

waktu awal2 jadi teenager, I was wandering apa la yg chinese kelas aku buat. duckface, high 5 and stuff
during highschool, taking pictures at the photobooth with multiple choices of frame were viral. so I was infected as well. rasanyer dari from 1 until form 3.
so I did the annoying cute poses and stuff. haha. its seems cute back then, but looking back those pictures just make me want to puke.
like really. I dont even like to look at myself. I deleted all of it from facebook. there were too many in Myspace, so I deleted my account straight away. hahaha. and I deleted the one that i kept in my hardisk
haha.
then, I wonder, why I did those cute/annoying pose.
its because,
I did not get any compliment or people saying Im pretty. and I did those stuff because i hope I can be complimented just like the way I like or puji gambar2 comel bdk cina.
I do get some.


but I get hate comments more.
:(
its ok looking back when the one whom kutuk u was ur friend. its forgivable. sebab dier pon kurang matang waktu tuh,
its the kutukan from THE ADULTSSSS. is what cause me to stop. :)
its not a good thing, because the smartest way to stop people from doing bad thing is not by giving negative feedback.
cth mcm: kita nk org hisap dadah berhenti hisap dadah . kita kutuk dier. mak bapak ko tak ajar la bagai.

cara mcm tuh. tak menjadik sangat and agak kejam.

so I LITERALLY STOP camwhoring. and say to myself. IM UGLY. people dont even bother taking my picture or even take pictures with me.nak2 lps form 3 pakai braces, lg burok ak senyum nyer pooonnn. hahaha.

sampai la masuk Matrix. :)
i have to say nak tangkap gambar rmai2 pon awkward. I LITERALLY DIDNT KNOW HOW TO SMILE.
then slowly, I get used to it.

i get used to taking pictures.
then, kematangan melanda.muahaha. bila ada certain hari orang ckp aku pakai tudung comel. aku pon amek gambar sendrik utk kenangan.but I pose NORMALLY
normal as in. SMILE.

lps bukak braces. I smile widely.nampak jer gigi.
I EMBRACE IT.

here, in university. I start to make dork faces. coz, being adult just get so boring , and I dont want my pictures to be plain.

and here in university, I get negatives feedback too :(

BUT, ia tidak menjatuhkan aku. haha.

because, since matrix, the moment people hate my self-taken picture. where they said things like this,

"ni perasan cute la ni"
"dh hbs comel dh ker"


aku ckp balik dlm hati.
MEMANG DALAM GAMBAR TU AK RASA COMEL PON TU SBB AK SIMPAN.

kalau nk ikutkan, if I took my own picture, out of 10. I will delete 7.
so the pictures tht I look good or pleasant, I will keep it.
because if I HATE MY LOOK JUST LIKE THE WAY I DID BEFORE


THEN I HATE THE LOOK THAT ALLAH CREATED FOR ME.
the look tht have the mixture of my mom and dad faces.
:)

so muslimat sekalian.
embrace it.smile to warms other people's heart. but dont do those annoying pose. like I did. haha. its ok if you are 13,14,15. you are learning. but if you are 19,20,21 ++
geezz,GET A LIFE.haha.


be thankful, that you can still smell with those nose, look at the world with those eyes, and recite dua/al quran with those mouth/tongue and EAT WITH THOSE TEETH,

because if you ask me.
my family member sendiri ada yg blind, cleft(sumbing).
for me being me, and still not thankful for it.
I am much worst than those kafir who accept themselves(their body and looks).

p.s: its not easy. but tabahkan hati. mohon bantuan Allah. if people dont want you in their frame, then make your own.

#kesabarandilangitke-7

thats all for now.

This is Nik Camelia Al Haded, a girl with a dimple on her left cheek, over and out.

University Life:Friends

This is Nik, comin in overrrr~~~

Assalamualaikum peeepsss.

I have not been blogging for a while, so before I do so, I have done a lot of thinking on what to blog about. So in this post I would like to talk about friends.

I have many friends. I know them in different ways.Squash, classmate, other-mates, a friend of my friend.
but, how many real friends do I have.
well to be honest. there are times where I feel tht my only friend will be my mom, esp when I'm at the bottom of the Pacific Ocean, lying there, weakly. at tht moment I always feel like, my mom is the only person tht can help me dive up to surface.

well, tht is what parents are for right?

but lets talk about YOUNG friend..

the one who is the same age as u, the one who can get annoyingly crazy with u.
How many are them, are REAL?
real means: they accept you for who you are, the way you think but stop you at the moment when you do,think,feel the WRONG things. the one tht might not be a great help when you are facing huge problem but they can comfort you with their best effort or maybe do a minor help.

Reflect yourself and think wisely.because I have done my.
All I can say is tht. I dont have much REAL friends. sometimes I feel like I have none.
I only have people tht I know A LOT.and just a FEW friends

being in University might take you in many ways of becoming a new you.
one: the road tht will make you be out of track in the road of seeking the great Iman for Allah
two: the road tht leads you to have a cleaner HEART(becoming more pious)
and many more.

in my head these are the only to roads tht exist. So if Im not in road 2 then I will be in road 1 which is A VERY BAD THING.

what Im trying to say is tht, in university life, people change.
I am changing.

i thought I was being NICE enough to comfort everyone, but somehow, there still ways people to hate me.
even hating me because of being right and helping themselves. I have been asking myself what did I do wrong until this one person can DISLIKE ME. at the beginning I said tht, he/she have low set of thinking. tht is why. but things happen for reasons. I think a part of it is my fault.I dont know what, but there is.

quote from a hollywood movie.
"at the outside world. ITS A JUNGLE OUT HERE."
it is not wild because of the buildings and machine,
but THE MINDS OF THE PEOPLE.
you can never expect what they are thinking.

some people plays dirty games, to survive, I want to play the right game.
In order to become a wise adult.


1st thing tht I did in becoming the new me is  I JUST SHUT MY MOUTH.do less talking, so tht I can take care of my talking manner.because I think, hard feelings or other things tht can a make person hate you is because you did not take care of your tongue.

its not easy, but there are always Allah, up there to see our sincerity in our effort and help us go trough it.YOU JUST HAVE TO BE SINCERE.


SMILE.
this is Nik Camelia.
over and out.
Assalamualaikum.