Life update to the unknown world

Assalamualaikum readers.

It has been awhile. My last post was about my 21st birthday which was not a super duper birthday but it was OKAY.

So after my birthday, I was way too busy with many things. I had to handle 3 programs which none of it actually happen due to many problems. I learnt my lesson, like a lot so moving on to the next project.

I did my best keeping one of the best time of my life experience before it happen from my friends because I can be really annoying when I start talking about something. So people hate me enough, I dont need more hatred. I have my humble reason for doing that but it didnt look really humble because when the others are busy packing and concluding the lectures on the very last week of lecture, I was in UNITED KINGDOM.

So the story of me crossing seas and countries will be next.

Now, I'M A THIRD YEAR STUDENT.
Look, it may sound so common but I still feel like I'm freshman.
When some random girls from my college asked me what year am I. the first thing that came into my mind was, first year. but I did not say it. duh.

Right now, Im currently busy with an international level kind of thing.
So, I dont have much to spent on blogging. I dont even have time to pamper my skin every night like I used too because I'm too busy to coped up with everything.
It has been very hard for me but thankfully Im not a professional in this "busy-like-politician" thing so Im in the phase of learning.
I do crazy mistake.
I hate myself.
I feel like giving up so many times, but then,
How can I be some one who can change the world when I dont want to change myself to be better.

it is hard.

so hard.

but my parents are proud that Im going to represent my university and also Malaysia, despite I told them not to tell the world about it, they struggling not to disobey me. they respect me the needs for me to lay-low.

so Im doing this for Allah and for the sake to make my parents proud.
some jerks are going to say what I stated above will be very POYO,well if u said it, than u are a jerk to me. 

Im going to change.

I will be a different person after I finish this project or maybe after I finish my degree but

along the way I can see people abandoning me for being different and such, so

it is not just "a turning leaf" it is a lot way more than that.

Im being very subjective here.
I will share details later.

This is Nik Camelia Al Haded
over and out.
Assalamualaikum.

21 and beyond.

This is Nik . comin in. over. beeepp

Assalamualaikum everyone.

on the 6th of April, I turned 21.

well, it was not a festive celebration, but it was enough.
a "thing" that my parents bought, was a huge mark for me.
a lunch that my brother paid, was yummy and delicious.
a video call from my sister abroad, is fun
a birthday wish from my cousin-like-lil bro, Aiman. is heart warming.
and
the lots and lots of bday wish from fb frens, are AWESOME!

thank you for all your sincere wishes, for me to enjoy my bday.

here, I declare that Im becoming more mature at every seconds that passes. haha.
some of you might think that, Im talking nonsense.
yes. every person is maturing.
but for those who know me, they know, the way I think and I speak.
The way I think is like Im living in a cartoon world.
bila aku sakat/kacau org, aku expect diaorg ketawa mcm goofy. huhu.
I like to see people smiling. cartoon always smile kan.

haha.back to serious stuff.
things happen. good and bad.
both happen on my 21st birthday. so that is why I said Im maturing.
Im not changing myself from what I am right now becoming a more boring person. NO!!
Im still gonna poke ur cheeks people *evil laugh

Im maturing in Islamic way.yes, Insha Allah. with Allah blessing and help+support from people around.
Allah make me cried that day.
I only realize a few days after my bday. why things happen like so.

Then I come to my senses. aku ni byk sgt dosa agaknyer.
what happen will haunts me for the rest of my life. as much as I want to forget, I have to keep that memory at one side so that, when Im parting away from the road to Allah, I shall remember

6th of April 2014, the day Allah reminds me to, sujud at him, crave for forgiveness and blessing only from him.

This is Nik Camelia Al Haded
over and out
Assalamualaikum.
p.s : dont ask me what happened. its personal. thank you.